The Verse of Day for March 7, 2017 presents this personal petition:
Psalm 139:23-24 (NKJV):
Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
This celebrated passage also brings to mind a previous blog entry that focused on the word “research.” Just as it was at that time, so I am also currently teaching a composition course where my students are working on a research paper, and once again the term “research” continues to be very much in my thoughts.
Research in its most literal sense means to “re-search” or to “search again.” In thinking about the concluding passage from Psalm 139, we recognize that this entire psalm could be viewed as an invitation to deepest, divine inspection. The Psalmist opens with recognition that God knows all about us. He has made, formed and created us. Indeed, we are “fearfully and wonderfully made.” The psalm closes with a heartfelt request in the closing verses.
Psalm 139 also brings to mind a previous blog entry that made reference to a life-changing teaching from Dr. David Jeremiah, who taught on the refining fire of God. I made reference to that message in this excerpt from a journal entry made following hearing the teaching:
It is one of the most moving tapes I have heard, as he relates how God puts us through the process of refining in order to extract the precious metal from within us. In the same way that a refiner breaks the stones and sends them through the fire over and over again, so God sends us through the fires of life in order to extract and purify the gold within our souls. God removes our need to feel secure, to be in control, and to survive by putting in situations that try us, “fiery temptations” that prove who we really are. God controls the entire process, determining the timing, the temperature, the target, and the terms of the fire. Our tendency is respond with a series of questions as to “why?”: “why me?”, “why now?”, and “why not someone else?” Like children, we continually ask why when God, as a good parent, is not obligated to explain that which children cannot understand at the time they ask “why.” The only questions we should be asking are “What are you trying to teach me?” and “What are you trying to change in me?”
Finally, in reflecting upon the passage from Psalm 139, my mind is flooded with an understanding of what is transpiring in my life at this time. God is doing precisely what I asked Him to do in two poems, both of which express my deepest desire:
24Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary. . .
pure and holy, tried and true. . .
Contemporary Gospel Song
Purify my motive; assay my devotion;
weigh each desire, carat by carat, dram by dram.
In the refining fire of your furnace try me.
Test the mettle of my soul; scrape away all dross,
all debris that would adulterate my intents
and leave behind the purity of ore that I
may see my face reflected in the pool of gold.
I long to take the treasure of your precious Word,
securely hide it in the lock box of my heart
and as a faithful son, hand you the only key.
Another poem that could be described as “the second verse of the same song” is also inspired in part by the same verses from Psalm 139:
Search Me: A Song for You
“I know your image of me is what I hope to be
If I’ve treated you unkindly, can’t you see?
That there’s no one more important to me.
Oh, won’t you please look through me. . .”
“A Song for You”–Leon Russell
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Psalm 139: 23-24 (NLT)
The whole of my life unfolds as an open book,
Known and read by all with eyes to see, page by page.
As you read each line, take an even closer look,
Probe the depths of each of my thoughts, as you engage
The text, searching my heart for its deepest meaning.
Your searching and knowing is the ultimate scan.
As you discern my essence, my inmost being,
I will align myself according to your plan.
Beyond MRIs, devices to diagnose,
You see and assess any abnormality.
In these times of watchful waiting, you draw me close:
Despite what tests reveal, you have healed and delivered me.
At times I’m overwhelmed and don’t know what to do,
“But we’re alone now, and I’m singing this song to you.”
Hillsong offers a moving rendition of “Search Me O God,” an appropriate musical accompaniment to close today’s blog entry: