Try me: Search me again

Psalm 139--23-24

Psalm 139:23-24 KJV

Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

The Verse of the Day for March 7, 2014 brings to mind a life-changing teaching from Dr. David Jeremiah who taught on the refining fire of God more than ten years ago. I discuss the message in this excerpt from a journal entry made following the teaching:

It is one of the most moving tapes I have heard, as he relates how God puts us through the process of refining in order to extract the precious metal from within us.  In the same way that a refiner breaks the stones and sends them through the fire over and over again, so God sends us through the fires of life in order to extract and purify the gold within our souls.  God removes our need to feel secure, to be in control, and to survive by putting in situations that try us, “fiery temptations” that prove who we really are.  God controls the entire process, determining the timing, the temperature, the target, and the terms of the fire. Our tendency is respond with a series of questions as to “why?”: “why me?”, “why now?”, and “why not someone else?”  Like children, we continually ask why when God, as a good parent, is not obligated to explain that which children cannot understand at the time they ask “why.”  The only questions we should be asking are “What are you trying to teach me?” and “What are you trying to change in me?”

In reflecting upon the passage from Psalm 139, my mind is flooded with an understanding of what is transpiring in my life at this time. God is doing precisely what I asked Him to do in two poems “Try Me” and “Search Me Again,” both of which express my deepest desire:

Try Me

Psalm 139:23-24

 

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary. . .

pure and holy, tried and true. . .

 

Purify my motive; assay my devotion;

weigh each desire, carat by carat, dram by dram.

In the refining fire of your furnace try me.

Test the mettle of my soul; scrape away all dross,

all debris that would adulterate my intents

and leave behind the purity of ore that I

may see my face reflected in the pool of gold.

I long to take the treasure of your precious Word,

securely hide it in the lock box of my heart

and as a faithful son, hand you the only key.

 

“Lord Prepare Me to be s Sanctuary” expresses in music the essence of that request.

Another poem that could be described as “the second verse of the same song” also opens with the same verses from Psalm 139:

Search Me Again

 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 139:23-24

                                                     

As you follow your protocol, search me again;

Probe the depths of my soul, as you once more explore

My life’s work, as you have done many times before.

While you search, take pleasure in all that may remain,

For your thoughtful study of my ways will explain

The lapses, that though I fall short, you will restore,

That I might be renewed to serve you even more

And so prove that my living will not be in vain.

May you find in me admissible evidence.

May your research validate my life and confirm

All that lives in me, as you once more analyze

The thesis of this research project, in a sense.

Despite intense scrutiny may your findings affirm

Pure-hearted devotion and service in your eyes.

The passage from Psalm 139 was also the inspiration for the hymn “Cleanse Me (Search me, O God) in this arrangement by Bryan Gilliland.

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